Though reluctant initially to have another TKK performance, so much to the extent of resentment, the experience and memories that were reaped from this year cannot be denied. Though it was full of ups and downs, (especially during the last week of blocking where things were not well, plus screwing up the first rehearsal due to some reasons), it did not end on a low note - with joy accompanying the lift-off-from-a-burden that has been a constant disruption to what had been planned.

This production not only allowed me to see the dark sides of people, it also allowed me to understand batch mates and juniors more, clearing some misunderstandings and perceptions, and of course confirming some of them. With that said, it also allowed me to understand myself more, and what I really want to do and hope to do. I also learned better how to deal and communicate with people, even though, at that point in time, I may have a sudden urge to flare up.

I have also learned how to respect others more, how to respect the production, the cast, the crew, the production manager, stage managers, technical heads, peers, juniors, teachers. It had been tiring for all, especially the heads and crew, as compared to the cast who do not really have anything to do, from which my observation tells me so.

Despite it being considered a success, I still think there are much more things to improve on, and it will be short sighted of anyone to stay stagnant here and not move forward, to not improve, and to not learn what is necessary.

Undeniably, discipline is one very big aspect that has to be improved on. The sacredness of the stage (front and back) should be respected, as well as the production team as a whole.

Artistic aspects have to be improved as well, especially acting (I still pre empt on the last show, and didnt relly get into the character for the last day). Members' coordination, quick response and teamwork has to be trained, and we have to be more bonded as a whole.

Technical aspects, in my opinion, has to be improved as well. The crew, in my opinion, did very well, but it can be improved as well. Less screw ups, higher discipline, better coordination, and more respect for the leaders of their respective team. I feel the crew is like a brigade, where communication is key. More preparation should have been done as well, instead of doing everything last minute (this does not apply for lights/sounds though :X).

Key appointment holders are the ones that have really fucked their hearts out, and hope this experience will not bring them down, but help them to do better next time (if they are going to continue in any way).

The above may sound too authoritative or too arrogant, but thats what I feel, (and i have already said everything in a more positive manner).

After watching huangcheng, and the coordination as well, I see a stark difference. I do not know how is their interpersonal relationship before the whole production, whether they screwed each other up or fell apart, but what I see is teamwork, discipline, time management, and most importantly, them enjoying what they do. Every aspect counts, and on a side note, I didnt expect Minhua to smile before 3rd bell rings. It is too imba.

Whatever I done wrong, whatever we done wrong, and whatever mistakes we have made, I think we all know it ourselves, and we know that we had done our best. At this moment, I have to thank some people. My apologies, it is still going to continue in weird English.

PM: The show wouldn't be possible without you. Though you had some bad moments and stuff, you pulled it through.

TJ: As always, thanks for being there and give me support. My love for you is undeniable (lol). Great job as SM, as well as backstage as well.

KL: I hope you rmb what I said lol. Its gonna help you seriously, being too kind to people doesn't help you at all. Again, great job :).

Hancheng: Ups and downs for you eh. BUT YOU ARE A GREAT DAOZHANG. ROCK ON and dont let falao own your balls. ^ ^

ST: Although your preparation of baby oil for removing makeup was prepared too early, but at least you prepared. :). Your team and you did a great job in ensuring the make ups to be on time. grats and enjoy bsc.

QY: You were great in managing your members (except for storyteller of course). And thanks for keeping ah kun's clothes neat everyday ^ ^.

John, songze and qifan: Trololol dengguang and yinxiang ftw. Although you all suffered an innocent scolding from him, you all rocked on and brought me laughter lol. But i still dam upset i havent ben in the control room at all lol. So songze you can continue niaoing me -.- .

LJ : thanks for reminding everyone when in need. And to share my woes too.

Dandan: Thanks for keeping the bunch of people under control.. and maybe.. thanks for crying for me? lol

Jingjian: Cool dude thanks for coordinating the ge dui, and a funny guy too, and for your ass touches .... Chilli Ketchup ftw.

Yuanxin: You've been a great help to hancheng, and a happy person to be with. thanks :)

Kerry: Thanks for letting me hug you and relieve tensions within me, hope to work with you soon ^ ^.

PC: thanks for not fantasising about girls when you have to do work. lolol.

And special thanks to Ho Jin Yang, for entertaining me every single minute I see him, you are a great joker, but a responsible and disciplined dude during production.

Of course, I have to thank Wang Lao Shi for his admin work, and his entertainment too. Zhou Lao Shi for helping me in my acting, confidence and make up, and Yang Lao Shi, for this yet another chance, and teachings that he had taught us all.

To the others who I cannot think at this time (and cuz time is getting too little), thanks for making this production complete, and to bring me joy and laughter when I needed it, as well as giving me packs of water without me asking for them, and helping me to check my clothing, make up and what not.

It has been tiring, stressful, full of sorrow and despair, but we pulled it through, and it is a great experience.

Either YiYun or HuangCheng, I will be there,to learn and make mistakes, to work with a team, to experience theatre, to do something that I, weirdly and coincidentally embarked on 3 years ago, and love it now, although I cannot really explain what it is, and to relive this undying fire in me.

戏剧， 是个遗憾的艺术。

听， 开声的认真。
看， 后台的勤奋。
想， 自己的角色。
希望，这些在来一次。

青涩的话， 可能并不代表什么， 并没有渗透力，影响力。 可能用词都用错了， 但这是我的心声， 我的感觉， 我的回忆。